Kelly Clinger's painful testimony: "I had an abortion and I hate myself"

Kelly Clinger, who was a back-up singer for the pop star Britney Spears, has blogged about her abortions.
"Someone asked if I had heard about the doctor in Orlando who has been in a lot of trouble, and when I searched for news about it, I realized it was James Pendergraft, the doctor who did my abortions.  He has now had his medical license suspended for the fourth time, this time for performing late term abortions past the time when they are legal.
When I saw a picture of the clinic, I crumbled.  When I saw a picture of the doctor, I began weeping and I couldn’t stop...I can still remember the poster on the ceiling.  It was the last thing I saw before I fell asleep from the anesthesia, and the first thing I saw when I woke up.
The article was full of stories about women like me … ones who have suffered for months, even years, because of incomplete abortions. There was a woman who was awake and saw her baby being pulled from her as his body fell apart in the doctor’s hands.  They had her frantic 911 call as she decided she wanted the baby to live after seeing that it actually is a baby, but no one at the clinic would help.  By the time the ambulance arrived, the baby was dead.
It’s an uncomfortable subject … because if I call it a baby, if I admit that it was a boy or a girl who had 10 fingers and 10 toes and a life that was already mapped out by God, then I am calling myself a killer.  If I talk about it, blog about it, pray about it, then that makes it real.
But just when I think I’ve pushed the memories far enough behind that they won’t catch up with me, there they are again.
The self-hatred is paralyzing.  It lurks closely and tells me that I don’t deserve happiness.  The guilt is suffocating.  It has affected every relationship I have...I would take a bullet for my out-of-the-womb children.  Why didn’t I protect the ones inside? I have given up hope that the past could have been different.  I cannot change what I did.  Every bible study, counseling session, and prayer seems to just be a band-aid over a wound that will never heal."
My question is whether or not Britney Spears will go public about her previous abortion(s). Britney's post abortion syndrome has been the focus of much detailed, medical study, including that of Dr. Theresa Burke.
Article found on LifeSiteNews

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  1. I really enjoyed reading the posts on your blog. I would like to invite you to come on over to my blog and check it out. God bless, Lloyd

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  2. God Bless you Kelly for coming forward and sharing your story and attempting to keep others from making the same mistakes. Have you heard of Silent No More or Rachel's Vinyard? They may be able to help you work through some of the self - hate that is still troubling you. Take care of yourself. Please, you need to for the ones that are "out of the womb" now.

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  3. My heart goes out to you, Kelly. You are very brave to speak out. I believe there is healing for you and one day as you continue to seek the Lord, what He did on the cross for you will become bigger than what you have done. He loves you. He died for you knowing. His grace is sufficient and it's not just to forgive you; it is to heal you. May the love of Christ engulf your heart today! Bless you, Erin S.

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